to the internet sea. My ship has arrived and the sea is calling me!!
It has been 5 years since I started this blog. I started it as a way to help me get through a very tough time in my life and over a love that left me hurting and heart broken. It has helped tremendously through the years and for every posting out there, there are two that are not posted because they were too personal to publish.
It has been 4 years since I decided to not continue the relationship. Today I can honestly say that I have come a long way and that I am happy. In fact, I am the happiest that I have ever been in my adult life and it feels good to be able to say that and mean it.
Sure, there have a been other women since NYC girl. Not many, only a few and none of them has had the same affect that she had on me except for maybe one. There has been and is only one that has actually made me want to begin again and to build a long term relationship with. However, as with NYC girl, I have no idea what I am to her and her signals only leave me confused and unsure. But I digress.
This blog is the only thing that is left of my connection to NYC girl and I should have shut this down a couple of years ago.
That being said, I would like to thank all who have visited and I hope that I have at least touched or helped someone in some way, no matter how minute, as it has helped me to now be truly "Smiling in the end..."! :-)
In closing, I leave you with this, first, do not "need" for anyone. It is far better to want someone than to need someone. I truly believe this and I know that I do not need anyone to complete me or make me happy. I do want to want someone. Imagine the love felt when I answer my love's question when she asks, "Why me?" and I answer with "because I wanted you and I still want you more even now."
Second, do not make someone a priority in your life when you are only an option in theirs. I think that is pretty self explanatory and needs no further explanation.
The only question now is, do I leave this blog out there for posterity (whatever) or do I delete it. hhmmmm...let me think about this!!!
